Tuesday 933 AM
I feel like I’m about to live under a bridge because
daily lyrical dose
benjamain button I str8 regressin on lifestyle of actions am I too stubborn I love the juul damn
hmm this place isn’t good. THe internet is barely working so
Should I just shoot myself
Tuesday 1135 AM
Yeah some days just to exist is an act of courage, and today is one of those.
One of those days where the phone I finally have activated fails 5 times,
Tuesday 1146 AM
On phone with dad.
I think of the bridge everyday
but on the phone he told me him and mom talked and I would be allowed to return if I needed to
and that’s a good weight off my shoulders
I’m so tense my shoulders are real tight
spoken word poem 1 :
would you accept me and my ugly parts
would you accept me, with all my vices and charm
I would kill myself if there was a self to kill
I will kill.self with lsd instead of actually ending my life.
kill.self is the function of ego death, well id genocide id
f(x) kill.self ego genocided it splif
alright alright calm down mike.
The mirror I broke in Adrienne’s car is $750 I just saw her a bit @mchens outside. Bouncing audio from freetyles, really taking advantage of this internet. I couldn’t be more frustrated and stressed, but I definitely could because it’s nice to know that I have a definitive ground zero I could run back to if need be. It’s going to be a wild one, this next yeaer. I’m leaving basically imeediately after finishing poliw.at.
Today is all about the website and purpose of pale blue . yup yup
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fiscally I’m deceased.
email sarah welch
Just I send this sayance out help help me help you help yourself she breaking glass ceiling the way she canvas my body sitting pretty so sucking witty her wit my tits our zits belly hair in her existential crisises help me help you help yourself in my self righteousssness am I right I am John Self Righteousness Feeling let me survive our time let me live in yours your time your thighs 50 lives every time I piss out the simplest
@ hunters - just rode my bike down the hill from Mchenry
and Ecology Action just gave me out a free helmet and light!! I’m so stoked ahahah. I bomb empire grade all the time without lights or a helmet. Well I wore a helmet once on the hill cause it was 420.
alright made it to 253
spliff train has begun but I’ll leave it at 1 until way later ahahah
I’m so addicted to week alcohol right meow
and still! Looking back on the logs, all year. Before poliwat I wrote in evernote since 2001, and basically I inherited this drug habit when I moved became indoctrinated in the UC system.
Maybe when I finish poliwat and go on an island, the same one Franzen went to will I be able to control myself. But in making my style of art, the whole point is to not control your self, in controlled ways.
Okay time to get google photos again
Hunter haus to do list:
- Empty iPhone
- share fb video with fem group, prep for Friday
- send jared his chopped up guitar ahahaha
- reapply in an email to social Good, sign the contract, link the website with the mission statement
finish designs for PBmon v1, get ready for cutter.
am I going going bald from this am I going bald from this stress
tuesday 807 PM
@ woodstocks with cam and mario - damn they are getting me c ar u n k F A d E d