933am
wow life
i am now a short sorty a walking short story my whole life a short story
my whole life a very short story
therapy begins
people write man I write and god laughs
its not man plans god laughs
its I write god laughs
with me
I laugh with god
even in the gutter
is how stubborn you can carry
so no its not throwing the baby out with
the bath water
its your grandson taking cooking
instead of band
cause back home there’s only cereal ramin and raw meat
and the way ‘things are going’
learning to cook is more usefuly than learning to bang
push and hit
and im eating cancer today
cause I just can’t be at home
cause my dad gets his diagnosis today
how far and im smoking cancer
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where do I look who first asked that
who first wrote that
who ever did was a genius
we all ask it now at some point
is it empathy
ok ok ok ok carls
fuck you you suck
ok ok ok ok proposition 65
for those of you that don’t know
you don’t live in the wonderful golden state
your sponsor didn’t tell you you’re rockstar skinny
your veteran sponsor didn’t tell you that with your intellect you could get in as an officer for intelligence
you didn’t drink wine last night and go to AA the next morning
you didn’t get picked up at 6 30
that’s not you
cause you’re smarter than that
you aren’t smoking again
you don’t drink by yourself cause you’re bored of company
you didn’t eat by yourself cause you’re obsessed with making
you didn’t see this through
this do
that re
then fa
must I explain
La - C - QT -
cmon it’s as easy as do re mi
cmon it’s as easy as 1 2 3
you didn’t answer the phone your ex that cheated on you needed help with a soundboard
you didn’t forgive her cause you love science girls
you didn’t cut out your other ex that was smarter than you
you didn’t write lyrics off her old game theory textbook
you didn’t have a bag of nerves
for a mom
you didn’t have a lazy cancer ridden dad
that lasted so long
he couldn’t have done that without a good mom
and I couldn’t’ve done marginally better
by being good to mine
my keep my woman and me
though my body is a temple
Historically how many temples get raided
that’s it. All the best do
Jerusalum has switched hands over 100 times
and I’m the best of my kind
so yeah I’ve got a chip
24 hours sober
and in 12 hours
it’ll stop being a lie
I always lived in the future anyways
was a quiet kid I spent a lot of time
playing legos silently in my own worlds
I already launched many campaigns
and that’s why it bores me now the art of war
what of the art of peace
and how to take that savage in me
untrained and impulsive to just the right way
you know me
I know you
it reads george on the back of this guys hat
your son is too young for carls JR
and my parents didn’t know that
this use to be the daily spot when we had scooter
9 boys in the neighborhood
and I’m the smartest and most talented of them all
it’s not ego it’s just fact
God was good to me
spoke to me
and now I’m out back
sleeping in a tent my parents had
found in an alleyway
and I worked with wood and make things and never sell them
cause like war, money is for children
and the adult man child in me
focuses all three
I’m an artist
took years to be unapologetic
and 7 years later I still can’t quit drink
but I’m inching closer
cause being born on a rock with so much potential
there’s a million reasons to drink
with such a beauitful species
and this is what politicians are talking about?
and this is what’s being said on TV
and this beauitful town
it’s abandoned bastard is its culture
but at least theres religious types
cause even though they’re stuck in jerking off to
revelation and armagaedeon
at least they give a shit enough
to meet up and grow spiritually
and that’s the least craziest thing to me
to grow spirtually
in the golden state
where proposition 65 is our savior
cancer is our fate
what’s a restuarant
in this town
that has not poisonous food
and today we find out just how much
cancer my dad has
and that’s why I eat for his fate
I make for his fate
and I working with wood
angle grindering chop saw sander and paint
drill and hammer
and scrap wood mate
I love it my hands can do it
its just adult legos
I make I make I make
selling is for children
like war and change
but I was supposed to write a short story
I forgot where I was
I’m at a fast food joint
I’m catching a buzz
smoke another just to cope
and today migh tbe the day
Imma hide away in the tent
this is just me speaking
cause I always get weird
when when when well
it was a good meeting
today I won’t drink
I’ll break every other rule
and I won’t drink
this is me look ma !
I’m not drinking
AA in the morning
didn’t jerk off last evening
that’s more why I feel weird
I gotta go do that
I get crazy with this dick
I get crazy just thinking
release that tension
and yeh fuck you future mic
I’m dead by the time you edit this
while I’m dead
you’re sober mic
just saw rosie
her hubby dan got it again
he said fuck chemo this time
he’s going to die a graceful death
and that was always the other michael across the street
the dad I wish I’d always had
the doctor the one with 100 old cameras
the dad I never had
but mine taught me music
and many of my peers envy this
and chris said I was a genius
I’m like no it’s a small town
small town genius. ha
worrying about the degree of your intelligence
is a sign your not
besides intellect is a great predictor for success
if you can tame that mania
that the world gifts you
because these are all
reasons to drink
going to leave and give it another shot
I won’t drink
I won’t drink !!!