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of course the device with the most potential to free us
enslaves us at first
we don't have the social structure fortitude set yet
there are no platos of the phone
there are none yet
who speaks and performs actions in a healthy way with the phone ?
no one I know and I'm
one of the saviest of my friends
and only the rich maybe probably
well I'm not going home just yet
cause its a full moon
it mightve been last night
but I'm a man I'm emotionally behind
at least 24 hours on some things all the time
yet ahead of time my dad finds out how far the cancer has spread
and the tears I shed with a smile
the tears just fall
through these actions with power tools
through these actions with paint
that's not lead based but probably has something in it equally as toxic
and my bare hands feel it
and my nose smells it
I saw about 7 years ago now
the cancer in my dad
and tomorrow he'll know
so yeah I'm emotionally ahead
when I live for the humans that don't exist yet
all my work always free
is what frees me
my religion more women in ppower
and I can't go home
if I want to be a respectable wolf
cause it's my parent's 32 anniversay
that's longer than I've been alive
so tonight's their night
getting picked up for AA @ 630
oo way to go future mic !
that means I'm drinking tonight
4 dollar bottle of wine
2 buck chuck with a a screw top
writing where I used to love school
and write every drink I had
and there's this chalkboard here in the back
titles before I die
well I chose a good spot tonight
becca didn't answer
she's busy from DC to NY
Paul didn't answer
he's got a second daughter coming this week
Jordan didn't answer
last night at vons said he loved me
I hit the sauna
and wrote helen a poem
and c chang my ex called
and I helped her get a soundboard working
I'm not scorning
it's just the lack of dialogue means I run my 7
7 dialogues at the same time
composing 7 tracks at the same time
writing 5 books at the same time
AA to get my parents off my back
hahaha that's funny only my mom
if my mom was a bag of nerves
if my bag of nerves was my mom
cause I contributed to that bag of nerves
I deserve
to take it from chad
go big or home
die in a ditch
die a graceful death
nate got me breakfast
we talked God
told him if 1 human goes to hell
I'm going too
cause I can still help them out
we only as strong as our most pathetic cretan
Imma die a graceful death
Imma die before I make it big
with grace
cause that's the thing
all else is illusion
make art means pursue truth
and Imma make my momma proud
go to AA now
late for the the bible study
too good a convo with robert
dont tell mom I'm drinking
cause the whole church knows now
I'mma die a graceful death
I'mma create till I'm fed
I'mma sync all these tiny hammers
in everyone's heads
I'mma die a graceful death
and save every last one of yous
cause God talked to me
twice
and I'mma die a graceful death
cause when I almost died
and jelly drove me to the ER
Joy in my heart
on the cusp of this world and the dark
I'mma die a graceful death
bout to move from a tent
to hummingbird studios with free rent
thank you God
and I don't feel bad for drinking
cause I'm making where Kanye made it
I'mma die a graceful death
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learning tonight before even diving in I love it.
shouldn't drink more
but it's a disease right
?
these are lyrics before I even hit play
headphones on my head for minutes now
archive insturmentals
only helen knows about
my parade on repeat till it annoyed her
she loves it though
cause the wrods I write
when I hit play right
on those beats
she loves me all the more
and the more I listen to JP
I love her more than I love myself
and let's face it
I like myself
I'm doing the right thing
rejecting money in the states
rejecting the latest frameworks
of the tech scene
instead writing my own
scenes on loan
at my parents expense
wasn't born middle class
but they try to pretend
and it's killing them
and as far as I know my
dad's already dead
I hear it in his tone
I'm tone deaf
a composer with no cues
he said tell becca to
make a movie about brown dog
and that I am
if I had more money in my pocket
and no paleblue.fm
but no god gave me poliw.at
at this point in locker room
you know what serves you
I give all credit to you
cause it's a ride and I'm no passenger
less you play
day of my death
all I work for anyway
so to hell with money
and to hell with words
how do your actions
dictate good verse
sync them hammers up
them hammers in tiny heads
chekov said it best
I'm no writer
a penniless drummer
even piano is drums
the softer you play
the more that is done
who cares
getting lost in the semantics
is how I find the meaning
and if no one understands
I change company
reason
logos
pathos
ethos
acyronyms L O L
I get past
while you get by
I see through
while you caught up
k okay semantics bore me
so I find meaning
during the boring
you can too
just you your rifle and you
(sorry ladies)
just you your bullets and you
you can do a lot with a lot of bullets
but you can't win no war
cause that's for the boys
with women writing letters back home
providing the ammunition
but what if lord
the world was run by bullets
instead of wars
yeah if the world was run by bullets
instead of wars
UNESCO says we'd see more
x and y and z
need say no more
I'm drinking by myslef
don't listen to me
or anyone like me
says people on TV
please
trump got presidency
cause he out republicaned the republicans
and I'm no treasure
cause I believe money is evil
currency is action
action based in belief
money is evil
you can't change me
so I'll die like melville poe and chopin
a fool poor and too early
I'll die in japan
2000 lines later and still no sound
HA helped my ex through it
why I still writing
oh yeah
writing cause I about to be drunk driving
I'll get away with it cause I can spread
dumb statistics in my favor yea yea
like 95% of people with an IQ over 150
that's rare to me
that's unlikely
are ashkanzi jews
HA I'm a russian
HA I'm finnish
HA I'm American
West coast best coast love me my idol
Golden state with the golden hair
don't need me simon cowell
I need empathy intelect from me mom
never gonna get it
why I'll never stop
you gave my dad cancer
and crippled my mom
oh oh idealogies
I'm coming now
cause I wrote in bible study
trumpy go presidency
by out republicanning the republicans
me no jealosouy
we just gotta be humble and learn
you gotta out trump trump
we gotta out Dr. Phils the Dr. Phils
we gotta out Oprah the Oprahs
and if TV so bad
we gotta out Joel the Osteens
please me
no child
cause I'd be too rough
know my own blood
no children from this cause
orphanage many kids without my kin
what I'd prefer to raise
without betts blood in them
cause my genes hit right
but my family ain't right
the wild betts for a reason
damn I know mike
damn we gonna be late
damn it alright
damn I know mike
damn I know mike
this before the tunes
quiet as my past
10 yards from the steinway
no key no ass
but should I call sean now
he's got a kit
that'll get good recordings
on this steinway and shit
but no I gotta polish this myself
and send my poem
cause she asked she wake up
to something I know
I you we them
l o l friend
our thoughts written
is a good excercise
of how we are controlled by our thoughts
so if I write of FTGHBJnkas
please don't let me asugidsadiugkhajdf aeww
and my keep please dont' sadhlfkjawebiuawehrjks me
help ans dadoijkdsbaeohr GE they them us
ZE they hay hey I'm
non binary on my ID
yet federal limits apply
and I a terrorist for knowing
we all gonna die
L O L no hibitionn
no second hand smoke
put tension in peter's voice
then the smoke
inflamed it now he's a mess
living in a tent makes my psychic to that
cause he's counting counting
I busy chasing truth
and those that do
die in the gutter before 32
so steal it all and write
and inspire action mic
we don't need money
satan was clever
the way adam and eve
was always attainable
no money no government
just just actions and words
and you know it
behavioral biology
went and proved it
if you need your perception convinced
that'll do it
but today''s motif
no remorse wolf holwing at the moon shit
thank God my parents together
their mutilated endeavor
cause if they weren't
I'd never I couldn't
write this letter
to my future self
tomorrow
you going to AA
tonight I drink
that's a good deal
beyond the crippled speak
if I'm allowed to speak
L O L
don't
getting
get
me
start ed
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any =ddd only those top of the hierarchy
can unleash the power
show me someone more talented
and challenge them unleash
badlease sqauters rights as humans rights abused or misued unless you’re talented
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