Sunday 803 PM
My granny’s hometown. I can’t wait to go there.
I walked home in about an hour and 30 from campus, listening to tape from yesterday and reading 12 rules for life.
The only reason I have jordan peterson’s book is because Bean happened to have it and she brought it over. Cas Katie Celia Simone came over at 9 with a live chicken and we took it to the chapel. I watched Katie kill it with her bare hands, it was the first chicken she’s killed. She practiced the manuver we googled on my hand, and it hurt. You can’t really get out of it. During that moment of silence when Katie as about to kill the chicken, I wanted to scream STOP like the end wedding scene in The Graduate. But I didn’t because I wanted to see if she would actually kill it. How many humans / creatures have died because no one in the group said anything, because they wanted to see if the killer would kill? After she cut the chicken’s head off with my buck knife, I put it on a nice random page in Jordan Peterson’s book.
Today is the day I submit to Jordan Peterson. And I do this becasue this last month has been bad. I know I’m cosmically behind schedule.
This last trip trip with lucy hunter lupe koa max and bridget was real educational. But I failed in many zones, and don’t have much good audio.
But what I do have, is the new direction.
It is here and now that I submit myself to rehab. I will finish my behavior manual for myself and a workable version of poliwat - then hit the road and be a modern day ronin or sorts.
I’m on the road to becoming a master
The journeyman is called a journeyman because they live in the journey. If we imagine life as a sacred circle, then the journey is a method to traverse circles over a period of time. This is where the journeyman is on the road to becoming a master.
Where am I
Who am I
Why am I
When am I
What am I
is this a free statue could I steal it? if I can lift it? my ex dumped me before I got excalibur now
pay off audio debt
and then wayyyyy down the line - pay off actual debt with art
I feel focused.
Now I’m all about using science to make art towards improving humanity. Using that science to make art
song - kids choir
mom make me a sandwhich dad make me a manwhich I don't wanna make one myself my job is to play your job is to not that's how society's built you wanna be me I wanna be you I want a sandwhich for ever pb n j forever mom and dad forever until one goes home dad do I have to be a soldier mom do I have to be a man sister do I have to be a player for your older friends Mom make me an astronaut dad make me a cosmonaut sister get me a date play date
Sunday 918 PM
Who am I ?
I feel been a huge disapointment for Avery the past few weeks. The Art x thing is like coming up and I didn’t film.
I hate depression and depression hates me
I love depression and depression hates me
I’m going sober for a while
my new God is a spliff on Junet 16th.
Hey if you can’t beat them
Human Gauge 1 Quickly fill in these blanks in your head (or write) home is where ______ I am ______ I am not ______ I will ______ I will not ______ Hopefully, ______
Exercises for humanity
Who am I
What happens when I
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Sunday 1032 pm
I want pussy in my mouth
Sunday 1049 PM
I speak this way because this way speaks to me
cleaning my room
setting up the laser cutter in my room
going to be asleep by midnight
sober mike continues
black tea to last the remaining time.
will you love me
and my ugly parts
overlook the abuse of my feet
abuse of my limbs
sacrifice of my liver
obsession with self mutilation
need for russian roulette
let us escape with the meat profound belief back to the future it present with me
deadpan | peter pan
called otter I auteur you
challenge accepted on road to wings on thought to things fantasy road to mastery full of ronin vibes I cant hang cause humanity at stake change
sunday 1151 PM
I’m begging you let me work the last words of the person that made astro boy
whats in my future my foam roller and dentures
will you love that
will you love me
monday 12 AM
I can do anything 1000 times
won't admit how long this took to produce they don't have a clue get a noose I future average nature reward courage you archaic salad give me a noose bottle fights lonliness fuck is an emotion browserquest my gf bomb thread to fed incognito window though know it don't help all the beauty I like all the ugly I like what emotion most hidden 50 shades of mike dont let me breed dont let me breed dont let me breed dont let me breed culture of self mutilation