0035
fuck this month is only about mental physical spiritual health n growth
and fuck my work
when it’s been only the death of me
and I still get stuff done
and got 50 gigs of converterd vhs tapes today
and started fresh edit on cuz brian’s keys and poetry he sent
and edited 3 pac 0 hoots is dead more it’s almost ready for spotify as possibly a single
and read the influencing machine
and patient zero is so important
symptoms occurred 3 days after
the rise of the industrial age
some invisible forces are controlling
you your thoughts and those around you
and people have been diagnosed with that
for a long time
and most of the time
a weak sense of self is a reason why
the media(plural) in america
started out chalk full of lies
and there is no one conspiracy
yet human nature is to conspire
and a one world government
can be utopia or dystopia
depending on how it’s constituted
and almost bought a bottle of wine
and instead watched a carl jung doc
and wrote notes
and wrote poetry like
I live in a world where…
my father is my senses
my mother is outside all my perception
and I am the one!
everyone concludes eventually I am the one!
I am the one of many
my interpretation as powerful
as the intended lesson
and whoever is on the other
side of the curtain
thank you
fuck you
I love you
and never, ever come out
stay there and
keep them they their puppets coming
is what I’m thinking
in rehab lying
on the studio floor
during intermission
in front of this donkey kong plush pillow
I am the one !
I am the one not being tricked
into thinking I am thinking clearly!
If you’re not thinking clearly
when you’re not yourself
tricks can be played on you
like living without myth
like a human mutilated
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my soul passed in a neutrino(fx)
ecstasy this will pass
suffering this will pass
addiction this will pass
desire this will pass
desire sexually this will pass
desire intellectually this will pass
desire materially this will pass
as a matter of fact
what will stay when this will pass
these words will pass
what will you stay?
who will stay when this will pass
who will stay when I pass?
this will pass
that will pass
they will pass
my dreams will not pass
my dreams will last
my passions will pass
and my dreams will last
my dreams don’t pass
my dreams won’t pass
I fall asleep all I see is my dreams
I wake up all I see is my dreams
no my dreams won’t pass
lying on studio floor so I don’t drink
and writing this because
my desire will pass
and my dreams will last
my passions will pass,
my dreams will last