Tuesday 909 AM
can’t play ball without some scabs
Tuesdat 553 PM
@ mcdonalds and less drunk than I thought I’d be at this point. I went on a mission to use all the pain in the house - revamping the studio. Bought kevin and I 4 locos - we’re going to rap tonight. Chad isn’t coming back today but might tomorrow. Knowing him he will stall one more day - he doesn’t seem to want to deal with his mother’s passing in his hometown. And I don’t hold that against him - he’s in oceanside with a bunch of cool people and the beach so that’s where I’d rather be than at the house in the mourn town.
I’m worried though
and also astronomically sad.
not sure what the right move is, except for spending the last 20 dollars to my nam eon enough mcdonalds for a small family, one I’d surely have if my IQ was lower.
I don’t even know what to say anymore, I’m just so fuckign pissed that she passed. This morning upon waking I was going through the latest AV I gnabbed and found her in one of my clips and she didn’t even know it.
She answered the door last week while I was holding the camera and didn’t mind that I was recording, in fact was encouraging in her demeanor. But I wasn’t that time.
I just can’t believe that she died before Vic’s passing.
and this all reminds me about that one wear sunscreen lecture from NYU I burned to CD years ago - he said to the graduating class something about how life is not a guarantee, and surprises blind side you on some tuesday afternoon or something. I’m not quite sure I remember it.
But oh well there’s a cutie here at mcDonalds and the bar is low - I’ll finish this four loco I poured into a ginger kevita kombucha thing and ask her out the least creepy way possible.
She’s looking at me so I know it’s going to be chill.
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In addition I brought 1 hard drive cable so I’ll for sure pay off some sound library stuff.
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god damn I need a change of pace.
am I a loser ? yeah but that's how you win right ?
strangers ask me the time I know what strangers are asking for when they prompt for time I give them extra credit existential ansers they don't understand am I right ? am I wrong to hang with those less educated to fuck with those less instigated am I doomed to hang in company and be he only human who sees ? no that's wrong cause I know what they see and it comes out in preach but their tongues are more blunt so they never realize what they see poor girl never did a choomie so I cancelled date at movies not enough happening for me unless half a tab met the mayor at midnight 30 minutes in her husband wants me to cuck she wants to give me the keys t the city I tell her no I gotta chase something pretty and they left 40 minutes ago a good handicap give it to me cause I hate being always on top peratory siempre nonstop when you think this quick this wit will kill me before my son turn 30 and I call it as I see it so I gotta say son, sorry your dad liked climbing so much now what poison do I prefer a cianicde apple like allan turning the gayest way to kill yourself through smoking in bad company legacy 1 good symphony that's enough for me haven't wrote it yet let me write 1000 tracks roll 1000 spliffs fuck 1000 blacks realease free 1000 hacks save 1000 crack heads get head give
editing darlene on the phone - been recording our conversations throughout the week.
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^^ what my paywall looks like :D
wo knows those, when you’re looing at - well she’s not over weight so that’s good enoguh
and e en if she was that’s
what’s the coolest thing about a journal?
the observance of the moment in that time and place. I’m drunk at mcdonalds so I don’t give a shit about either.
I'm going so e right now you're going so Z back then
the cutie here got off so it looks like we’re playing long game -_- :D
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asd i forgot what I was going to type :(
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