Mondat 153 PM
In kenzie’s car - we’re mobbing to replace my EBT card then getting hella keto vegtables.
we broke keto since the last fern gulley party. Then we’re picking up niko and doing monday volleyball at 4!
Been real depressed since the day before the party and beyond. The part was super nice though.
I just have been going hard on the paint, I just feel too many turbulent emotions sometimes.
Yesterday I put some cowboy bebop on while washing the dishes.
Brianna and I have been having fun but I still can’t get this jaded taste out of my mouth.
I am a strange loop.
You are a strange loop.
I talked to Scotty - he’s going to hire me to pick wine grapes over the next few months. I like this job option for 2 reasons, first it is a way to get paid to workout. Secondly, I have been feeling the desire to pay penance, and getting a job is a way of doing that.
Also as I look forward in life, moving from a nice office job to a farmhand job at a fraction of the pay feels like an upgrade in some ways.
Niko and I went out eyeballng this trailer on our property that is the landlord’s, and I’m looking for a cheaper rent option and bigger space, because my room is just too small. So I think a makerspace trailer is more the vibe to go.
I want to focus on discipline, I failed again. I have failed so many times I don’t care anymore. I’m going to keep trying.
This round, let me cut out alcohol for the week.
The shitty internet at my house killed a lot of opportunities the past few months. I always could’ve been farther than I am.
no stop wasting time, its time to only fundraise.
collect all files, and fundraise. Then on tuesday I’m going to play a rerun.
I’m going to lay out all of the projects.
Small tasks, starting here:
get EBT card activate debit card
=-=-= mondat 4:29 PM
Picking up muneerah jsut made a new snyth line that I didn’t record and hope I don’t forget.
Feeling the stress on a new level. I’m focusing on discipline, my current weakest trait. But I don’t think it is weak, it’s just unrefined, coarse, wild.
I’m writing instead of freestyling because my friends told me to stop freestlying last night. Just for 10 minutes they pleaded. But I can’t stop because it’s a disease, because I know at least one secret. A common pattern
when It's raining I submit to in my head where it's raining I today I submit to cynicism because that's the healthy thing to do because there's many reasons to entertain it today I submit to criticism cause there's truth behind every fool cause there's today I submit to hermeticism joke I the blunt side
mondat 449 PM
nothing but spilled coffee today
4 girls gone wild for new leaf 4 a metaphor a trump kafka cocroach confused nuclear codes sits in a folder on my craptop apptop faptop 4 naked children in africa 4 bottomless mimosas for 10 dollars 4 coffee spills today let me wallow cause a wallow is riding a wall I ride them walls I surf hesitation kills my inner hurt open casket if I'm shot into space
mondat 621 PM
We played volleyball at the beach, hit bookshop SC, now for a real costco run cause I have a fresh EBT card!
I don't like thinking in if you likes what does ubuntu mean? would you forgive my uncountable eccentricities unpredictable tendencies there's a pattern I see it parked in the distance I love text editors more than I love myself but I'm tired of thinking linear map it fap it document whats the difference everything has been looted I the new average everything's broken music film art history code won't compile missing directory prime time joint expedia TV's been mastered cause I don't compile my mind is broke like my bank steak keto life mate make placemates my point of reference I'd be lost without google maps indeed open source or die faps dabs on the coffee table coffee with cam from maple leaves he says he's a racist cause of his race I say I'm a stay here in this maze cause I am in control front like I don't cause surfing is more fun than driving the boat cause I don't compile once in a while 3 flags up got up get up got up dawg on yo shoe whatup? plant a flag a part of humanity plant a flag what are we even doing plant a flag
Mondat 751 PM
- I pity the city without an onion shirpah