h is the best thingin this town

and she’s not in this town

like I’m underwater and my proprioception is telling me my skin is a few centimeters off of where it actually is so its lying and Im doing these things and apathy is the main underlying feeling

fire as a field bridge water as a field bridge air as a field bridge humans as a field bridge

1220 next day

I’m still sober and I beyond depressed

no one is available intellectually

idk I’m apathetic about my eventual suicide at this point

idk what to do

sleep in a park ? I wish sauna sweat it out? ok that’s a good idea

with a big thing of kombucha and all my suplements

I’ll do that

and just try and sweat this fucker out


Apathy Gains in My Sewey Thoughts

2019-08-05 23:49:54 -0700 -0700

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